The Nicssite Blogger

So it’s me again.. I know you’ve [missssed] me to the extreme. Anyways, I have been way too [busy] with work and school and life. But I finally am slowing down so hopefully you will hear from me more.. I have been going through a tough time dealing with the {FIVE} year anniversary of my dad’s death. It’s hard to think that August 6th, 2003 was the last time I saw my dad forever. It’s a little hard to deal with. Sometimes I like to pretend he’s still alive.. just for a few seconds. It doesn’t make him less dead {just sucks}. But anyways Nic and I are doing better. I tend to punish him and take my personal problems out on our relationship which is completely unfair but he seems to understand. We actually broke up for about two weeks even though we were together pretty much EVERY day and it wasn’t really like we broke up. But we’re together now and I’m pretty happy about that things seem to be going really good and we’re all pretty happy. Anyways I think I’m going to go to bed. Gnight.
-CmH-

Well I’m now in Indiana. I know all you [non]readers are glad to hear this. I unfortunately haven’t been able to see much of Nicholas because his family is visiting. His sister stayed the night with me and my niece. It was pretty fun. Nothing much going on. Just getting moved and settled. Byee.
-CmH

Yes, I know I spelled tomorrow wrong. It’s part of my blog;Two! more days. and then I leave, - I don’t have time to type one t{wo}omorrow. So I added it. Cause on Monday, I’ll get to see tomorrow. This all makes sense to me.. and well if you have a brain that functions even kinda well you should understand.. if not.. no worries, you’re really not supposed to know anyways. It’s just for me and Nic. All packed up. My car is loaded. I just have to add a few other things, like my laptop, ipod, blanket. and, of course, me. Pretty soon I’ll be writing from the comfort of my very own apartment! My room mate is from Brazil. She seems pretty sweet. Makes me excited. Nic will only be 10 miles from me. It’ll be great! Life is Nebraska sucks. I just wanna move. I, however, am getting kind of sentimentaland I might miss it some. Anyways I’ma chill and watch the rest of my show.  So peace people.  Byee. Oh. P.S. I love you Nicholas. Oh and P.S. to everyone else.. [as soon as I move and get over being lonely, there will be more blogs from me that aren’t about Nicholas and are{not}lovely dovely. make you wanna gag-ish. Promise.]
-CmH

Well life is grand.. I’m busy packing so I think about Nicholas less. It’s kinda nice. But I reallllllly still miss him a lot and tons. I had my going away dinner, it kinda sucked because this one girl thought if it wasn’t all about her she got pissed. It was ridiculous. I swear. Anyways. I just thought I’d update you. Even though I’m sure no one really reads this.. Sigh. Oh well just my whinning. Byee.
-CmH.

Yes, you’ll probably be getting one of these blogs every day that I’m away from Nicholas. I’m lonely and sad and “love sick” But wouldn’t you be love sick if you were without the one you love. And you two didn’t get talk very much cause he works all day and has no internet. It’s extremely sad. And your friends want to ignore you cause they don’t want to deal with the fact you’re leaving? It sucks hardcore. And I just wanna fall asleep in Nic’s arms where everything is perfect and he makes everything all better. I just miss him a lot. It’s crazy. I knew I would be sad. But not this sad you know. Anyways. This is my whining for tonight.
-CmH.

Sigh, I’m really lonely now that Nicholas has moved. I don’t get to see him for 2 weeks. Which isn’t THAT long, compared to military families and such. But, it’s way to long for me. No more friday dates. So I’ll be chilling. He doesn’t have his own internet so it’s kinda hard to talk to him. At least he’s earning money at his job. He gets 10 bucks an hour. Like I said previously, I just really can’t wait to get out of Nebraska. I hate it. I wanna be with Nic. I’d love to live with him, that’ll be next year! Woo bitches. I can’t wait. Anyways I guess I’m done. I’m just sad and lonely.
CmH.

So Nic moves soon. I’m so jealous. You know. I’m the one that wants to move to Indiana soooo bad but he moves first. Sigh. Oh well. I guess I’ll get out there soon enough. This summer has sucked for the most part. All I do is work it seems. I hate having to wait to move. When we went there last time. I really didn’t want to come home. Really. I would have been perfectly content to leave it all behind and just start there. I would love for my mom to be there. But I know she will eventually. But other than her and my grandpa I really have no reason to be in Nebraska. And my grandpa is just fine without me. Once she moves the only reason I’ll come back is to see my dad’s grave. That’s it. Not for friends. Not for fun, what’s fun about this place???….nothing! That’s what I thought. So yeah. Anyways that’s my mind right now. Peace.
-CmH

Wow. This is pretty sweet. I can write all kind sorts of terrible things about Nicholas. Yeah yeah. You would be surprised the stories I can tell ya. Haha. Just kidding. But this blog idea is pretty cool. I like it. That’s about it I suppose.
-CmH.